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[09 Feb 2008|04:44pm]

 So I am about to be a VERY busy girl.

I currently have two jobs. I work at Chunkys. and now HOLLISTER <3 yay. im excited.
I am also currently in my Senior Class Play.Carmen Diaz. <3 yay. im more than excited.
& soon TRACK & FIELD startsss <3 YAY

Second Semester Senior.uh oh. ive been doing really well. but then again it hasnt even been a month in the semester yet.

I cant wait until the summer. by then I will have FINALLY decided about college.

I got a 4,000$ scholarship from Hofstra. thats pretty awesome. but i still need to wait to here what im going to get for federal financial aid.
& I really want Emerson to pull through. please.please.please.


When I turn 18(SUMMER PLEASE COME FAST) im getting a tattoo on my lower left hip. Its going to be a peace sign. like the one you do with your fingers. my lucky number is 2 and I always give the peace sign.
and I want to get my belly button pierced...you only live once.

I MISS EVERYONE =(

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[25 Dec 2007|10:26am]

dear DECEMBER,

 you started off so sucky and i hated you.
 but then I got accepted to my top three schools
      1. Emerson College
      2. Northeastern University
      3. Hofstra University
that was amazing.
then I also got CARMEN in my senior class play FAME.
that was wonderful.
then for xmas i got a new cell phone and guitar hero 3 among other things.
that was the shit.


I LOVE YOU DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!




merry christmas everyone. and i cant wait to start an amazing new year 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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yes! [14 Dec 2007|02:43pm]
Success's #1 and #2

#1 my AP gov class has moved onto State Competitions for our in depth Constitution studiess

#2 I GOT ACCEPTED TO EMERSON COLLEGE FOR BROADCAST JOURNALISM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[08 Dec 2007|01:00am]
[ mood | cranky ]

congrats everyone.


after four years of putting effort,heart,and money into a place i call my second home..i receive nothing in return. it sucks to know that my last mainstage show at peacock was Aida(aka the biggest disappointment of my life) I knew it was coming...i dont know why i thought i had a shot.

DECEMBER 7= failure #1






the hag???really??

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Here I Go... [05 Dec 2007|06:02pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

This is a December unlike any other.

Its either my month of Failure..or Success.

not only do I have two VERY important auditions for two VERY important shows but I find out about my top three colleges.
& not to mention the one year of Jareds passing. I feel like we should do something.

so much has happened this year. I cant wait for the new one to come. 2008. I love the sound of that.

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[28 Nov 2007|07:20pm]
this week long vacation was absolutely PHENOMENAL!!! I had a blast.
-homecoming
-hanging out with everyone
-stroll
-nicks house

so now Im going crazy. Little Women auditions are coming up and I am so nervous. I really feel like I have worked so hard in my four years at peacock and I have grown so much..i really just want someone to give me a big chance to prove it to everyone that I can do it. I know I can do it. I can't say that Im too confident...but I can say I'm going to give it all that I've got...

and if I dont get what I'm shooting for there is always the Senior Class Play:::FAME!!! clearly im ecstatic. but i wouldnt be suprised if the hispanic Carmen goes to someone else who ISNT even close to hispanic..isnt that how it always works out? well we'll see.
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[09 Oct 2007|04:07pm]
so i pretty much had the worst three day weekend ever.

1.study for SATS and taking SATS.gahhh(but thank god theyre done..hopefully)
2.having to work after the SATS
3.getting called into work on sunday and monday
4.not singing my best at FireFest
5.Losing my cell phone at chunkys...still cant find it
and 6. Me and Danny broke up.

for right now..its the best thing. we need to take a break from each other. i need to evaluate how i truly feel about him and having a relationship with him. Im selfish and un-willing to make compromises..and you cant be either of those things in a healthy relationship. I still love him and i will always love him.
If you love something..set it free
If it comes back it's meant to be.
When we were alone

[04 Oct 2007|03:53pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So I am finding myself in the same position i was in during may/june of last year.

Im always questionning this but i just cant seem to let him go..i dont want to. i love him.

i really dont think ill be able to get married.

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if they hate then let 'em hate and watch the money pile up [01 Oct 2007|05:26pm]
So I guess we're trying to bring back lj?

Well ive been listening to Kanye West alot and I absolutely love him. He's fantastic..and I love his lyrics...they can be dirty but I feel like he makes it stylish and classy and not scummy.

Spotlight this year will hopefully be good...its 125$x2..so it better be good.

Senior year so far is almost exactly what I hoped it would be. for some reason my guard has completely come down. maybe because the whole going away to college thing is all so real.speaking of the C word as john calls it..my essay is done (well my first draft)and i know exaclty where im applying..ive visited all of the schools minus 2..and i only have a few things to do for one of the supplement forms. it feels good to just get that out of my way.
my first application due is NOV1 then two on NOV15 ..those are my top three schools...all early action..so hopefully i get into one of those and i wont have to apply to the other schools.

i havent really seen much of anyone except for people at school and work(which i love). so lets make some plans or somethingggg
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THE BIGGEST UT MOMENT OF MY LIFE [31 Aug 2007|06:00pm]
sooo....uhhhh what?!!?
you know what im just going to flat out say it IM WICKED FREAKING CONFIDENT IN MY VOCAL ABILITIES...possibly pushing COCKY.
... but how/what the hell happened? How did I not make this show? I know for a fact I was better than two of the girls who made it.

I was completely shocked lets just say that. I dont even know why I bother anymore.


GREAT start to my senior year.
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[04 May 2007|04:50pm]
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAAH
sorry I just needed to pee my pants for a second.

SAT's tomorrow.im super nervous...hello future?!?

my sitch from the last entry has been tamed and everything is fine

Jr.Prom is coming up in 2 weeks. which means wizard of oz is also...i dont know if im still doing tech or not..i havent really heard anything.

so i love track. its really tough. but i def. feel like im getting toned (ie. i fit into clothes a lot better) and im getting tanned from being outside so often.its cool..plus i love the people.

thats pretty much it.other than i miss you guys so much [ the only people who really read lj are peacocks and theatre kids] i honestly havent seen you guys in forever =/

P.S.
Did i mention that I AM JASMINE..yes the MOST GORGEOUS disney Princess = MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! not you or you or EVEN YOUUUU. BUT MEEE! can you say dream come true/!?!?!?!?!?
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[22 Apr 2007|09:25am]
I'm torn.
I have no idea what to do.
even though theres nothing that i can do.
either way will be bad.
i can't be this person.


but im only 16...im not married.
but i won't be that person.
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[01 Apr 2007|02:23pm]
live journal is so depressing. i never really read..or for that matter write anything that is too happy.

its kind of un healthy.
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[18 Mar 2007|12:47pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Junior year.Its almost halfway over.It feels like its my senior year but I don't know why..maybe because Im feeling so much pressure about all of this college shit. Its always been so easy for me to just be like "I'm going to be an actress".always. While everyones dream careers of being astronauts and circus clowns faded..mine didnt..and hasn't. Now when i tell someone that i want to be an actress they just look at me funny...like im stupid.
im not allowed to major in acting or musical theatre.flat out not allowed..or im not going to college. [ my only loop hole is if i get into a big name college with a full boat scholarship..aka.not going to happen]. what if thats the only thing i want to do? what if i cant see myself being Mrs.Russo the teacher down the street..or Mrs.Russo the dental hygenist. I seriously cried for 3 hours because im so scared.

what the hell am i going to do with my life?
where am i going to go to college?
how am i going to pay for college?

SATS are in 48 days.

as of right now I am ranked number 51 out 491 Junior students at Nashua High School North. with a GPA of 4.2229 out of 5.0 but what does that even mean? it doesnt mean anything until i know what the hell i want to do.

i wish my guidance counselor wasnt a complete idiot.
Heres what senior year looks like:
AP European History
AP Psychology
Pre Calc (H)
Spanish 5(H)
Anthropology (H)
Expository Writing(H)
Writing Fiction (H)


other than feeling completely stressed about college. I feel so detatched from people that i used to be so close with. it has a big part to do with my work schedule. But i don't choose to work. I have to. I'm by far the poorest person at peacock. when people first meet me they think im super rich..yeah well I'm pretentious.SO FUCKING PRETENTIOUS. so i have to work to make 100$ a week.to try and do the things that i want to do. Its not that i dont want to hang out with you guys..its not that i like work people better..its that i need the money. i dont want it to spend it on fun things..i need it.

I feel like ive changed so much. I cant tell if its maturity or just...a difference.

if it wasnt for being so completely in love i'd be going crazy right now.

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[15 Mar 2007|04:15pm]
[ mood | loved ]



All my life I've waited/This is true.

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